BIRTHDAY GIRL

dear sally,

i just wanted to say
                 
                            HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
                HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
                HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
                HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
                HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
                HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!


thank you for coming from london to milan this weekend to celebrate with me! this weekend is magic because you are here! i am so grateful to have you in my life! and i want you in it forever
I LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GILLY

the passing cloud.

hey sally,

theses past 2 weeks, i ve felt depressed ...but for no reason.......there was a huge grey cloud on my head. 

and depression for me is weakness....I AM NOT ALLOWING it to myself.....

 

i realise that i am putting way too much pressure on myself. i like to control my weight, my life, my wishes. my carierre!!!

AM i pressured on being skinny? and i will tell u now straight. YES! a big one. BUT ITS NOBODYS fault, just my own! IM PUTTING myself my own goals.

but in this world, we are  brainwashed by all clients and magazines and shows, and your mind tells you that being skinny is a MUST. so when you are focused on your carierre and you want to do well, you are putting pressure on yourself for Being very slim! and that requires to watch what you are eating. watching what you eat, is showing yourself you have a willpower and its gratifying.

so,when you are bony, you feel good. stomach goes in.....and this is a sense of award. all the efforts are seen. YOU TOUCH THE BONE! CONGRATS!

when i was younger and not modelling, i would hate the fact i was so skinny, i would wear a legging under my jean to make me look bigger, or wear big size sweater to cover everything, and especially the absence of BOOBS!!!! what a shame...i was eating macdonald almost everyday, if not it would be pizza hut! anyway, then i got to this agency who told me to loose a bit of weight and thats where i changed my vision. skinny became beauty. 

but now i discovered that what is HAPPY IS BEAUTY!!!!!!!

i was just reading the book HUNGRY by CRYSTAL RENN. where she explains her  eating disorder.

and how she got over it. its until she was truly happy with her body and her life that things started to work out for her, and she actually became a TOP model..even at size 12!!!! she now works with the best photographers and the best magazines! she found love and got married and still walks big runway shows like zac posen this spring summer 2011.

you can work at any size because what matters is your energy! you are giving positive energy when you feel HAPPY!!!!!the question is how and what can you do to feel happy. you will shine in the casting and you will book that job!! and have the carierre you want.

 SALLY read that book its very inspiring.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

as for me, i feel much better, i feel that my grey cloud has moved on

I like to control myself. , i like to be  proffessional , so i arrive on time, i go to all my castings i put all my energy into what i like doing...my job. i like to feel skinny, thats how im happy. but i need vitamins for that. ive had a month not so healthy, and unstable relationship with food. i had a lack of vitamins and brought the NO REASON CLOUD upon my head

eating is essential. vitamins is essential for good mood. vegetables, fruits,sometimes a bit of chocolate, good fats are positive energy ressources. that we do NEED for our well being and well feeling. and the rest will come along. 

  

SO what really brings you success is HAPPINESS! and this is the only thing WE HAVE TO CONTROL!

when you think about it, its great.its AMAZING 

when we feel bad or sad we have to shift our emotions.

the wind blows, and the grey cloud is gone.

kisses...

            your gilly...by the way HAPPY HALLOWEEN:)

Life curiosities

Hey Gilly!!!
Recently I realized really how important personal style is, as well as being in the right place at the right moment. All that thanks to something curious that happened to me. I was very late for a casting, together with 2 of my roommates, because of some manifestation. Anyway, we got there finally and we did the casting. After that we were walking on the street and kind of just standing on one corner and trying to find the bus stop. I was wearing a black leather jacket, a green scarf, I had my big Chanel bag, my Miu Miu boots (black with a lot of silver studs) and ... I think a short black skirt.. I hadn't really payed any attention to my outfit that day. But obviously it was attention worthy, because later in the afternoon I had a casting in a totally different place, and when I went there the people were instantly "OH! It's her! It's that girl! With the green scarf and the cool leather jacket!" And I was just standing there, not knowing what they were talking about... And then they asked me if I was in Piazza ... I don't even remember, earlier that day. At first I said no, but then they said "yes, yes, with two other girls" and then I remembered that I was with 2 of my roommates, at exactly that place. So, they had noticed me from their car while passing by the corner where we had been standing, searching for the bus stop. The client said that he told his friend in the car "I want this girl! " just because of my style..... just because he liked my look... I was deeply impressed, surprised and speechless.... First, because he had noticed me, second, because he remembered me, and last, because he recognized me after. I felt good, I felt proud of myself for having made an impression on somebody, for having caused such a strong reaction. It really made my day, and I also found it quite funny.. how sometimes something you consider bad at the moment, turns out to be for the best. If I hadn't been late for that first casting, he would never have seen me, and maybe he wouldn't have booked me. So, I am grateful for everything that happens to me, even if it seems bad at the time. I love you Gilly, and I wish you only the best of the best!

With Love,
*Sally* 

PARIS ss 2011 review.

hey sally,

i just did a review from the shows in paris for this spring summer 2011 season.and some pieces caught my attention. i had an ensemble vue of some looks and some key trends for next summer! here are for me the best pieces and collections of the paris runways!! check this out


                                                                                        CHANEL

                               LANVIN 

             the pullovers, the necklace, the fabric!
                                                                          

                                                                                  ELIE SAAB

DRIES VAN NOTEN

                                          miu miu

 for me the jackets will be seen! with a simple skirt of pants, the jacket is a statement!

                                  NEIL BARRETT

                                                      GAULTIER  
reinvent the DAVID BOWIE ROCK 80's look

                                                                      


                                                                        ISABEL MARRANT

                    NINA RICCI

   DIOR

 for me that bag can become a IT BAG!!!!! the jacket is a must too!

                                                                                CHLOE  

 a 70's touch and the brown nude colour


        
                                                                        GIVENCHY

VIKTOR AND ROLF

 they showed us what they could do with sleeves and they reinvented the white shirt in a original way!

with love,

gilly.